Audit

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This morning I had my very first audit, and yes, I almost cried. Not because of the sharp, stabbing, shameful words thrown at me, nor the accusing stares, and definitely not out of panic or anxiety. I almost cried because my spirit was crushed and I knew, deep down, that they were right.

Guilty as charged.

In the medical field, an “audit” may bring all sorts of feelings — anxiety, panic, frustration, pity, defeat. For those not privy to the term, an audit is when a doctor, usually one who’s still in training (resident/fellow), presents an interesting case to consultants; and this case is, more often than not, a patient who died on his/her own care.

This has been a long standing academic exercise, more like a tradition, in the medical field, to discuss whether the patient was managed appropriately or not. Others may call it an M & M (mortality and morbidity),or a CMR (case management report), and here is where all the real-life drama of medicine actually happens and not get featured at your favorite medical TV series.

An audit is where all the steps of your management of the patient gets stripped down to all the nits and grits — every wrong detail noticed, every wrong move critiqued, nothing escpes the analytical eyes and ears of the bosses. It’s like seeing the presentor being filleted alive, and then eaten (and then be regurgitated, and again be eaten!) In our native terms, kinarne.

I guess all audits goes the same way. The main reason why you are presenting the case is because the consultant who wants the case presented finds or found something wrong in what you did and wants you to learn a valuable lesson. And well, unlucky you, you just have to learn this valuable lesson the hardest way possible: in shame.

And learn I did.

Yes, I admit that there were lapses in management for this patient, and quite unfortunately, our team don’t have anything substantial to excuse us from these lapses. Most of it comes from wrong attitudes on patient care that were passed-on from seniors to juniors. Part of it is complacency. And an even smaller part of it, dare I say it, is negligence.

This was my first time, and probably not my last. As we climb the ladder of hierarchy and become more senior residents, even more patients become our own responsibility. I know I’ve learned a lot today, and in the end, I think, the most important thing that you must learn is acceptance. Accept that you were wrong, and in all certainty, know the right thing to do when you get the chance next time around.

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One thought on “Audit

  1. It’s part of training…in the end…it’s going to be for the benefit of the patients that we will handle in the future…now is the time to learn these valuable lessons…yes, kinakarne tayo…but when you look back after all of this…you’ll realize, you’re a better doctor because of it…goodluck ge! you can do it! πŸ™‚

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